This day is full of sadness...

I guess I never really got the full effect until today. Maybe I wasn't Alyssa's best friend, but it doesn't mean I didn't know her and see her grow up. Looking at the pictures and seeing her just made me realize how unfair it all is. I don't know what to say.

Next is Sarah's going away party. It will be fun, but then Sarah will be off to college. That's pretty sad as well. I'm not sure why I even bothered writing today.

I feel like....

I don't know what I should do or say or think or feel. Today I was happy... and then there was the sad news about Alyssa. Somehow we had to go on and do the youth program anyway. It worked out though. I didn't know her that well but I did know her some and it still is really sad. I can't imagine what it's like for her family... especially Tasha.... school is going to be really sad... well I guess I'll move on to more light matters.

I think I did my thug part really well and the skit went nicely. Thanks to Ross for providing the jeans. The singing wasn't the best but who could blame us. I wonder who will be our youth leaders now. I really hope we get some soon. We get along all right but it would be nice.

Today we had the going away part for Sarah at church. What am I going to do when Sarah leaves? How many times have I asked that? I went with Sarah to her aunt and uncles house after church. We had some good food and swam in the pool. That was fun. We tried to be olympic swimmers. I won the ring diving. Sarah was good with the flippers.

Yesterday Sarah and I went to move the furniture into the church room. Then Ross came and we went to Pizza Hut. That was fun. Our waitress rocked! She was great. I think her name was Sharon or something like that.

Friday night I went to the football game. We beat Alcona. It was like 46 to 6 I think.

This time I sort of went backwards but it seemed right at the time. It's hard to understand things sometimes...


Blessed Be Your Name

Blessed be Your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing you pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing you pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord Blessed be your name

falling into my old schedule

So by the second day school already feels normal... at least I wasn't barfy today. QZZZZZQQQQQQQQQQQQQ... heh that was my cat. The only thing not fun about today was pre-calc. That wasn't the greatest but I didn't expect it to be.

After school I went swimming with Sarah and Ross and then we went to finish the room. We're finally done painting it and it looks pretty good. All we need now is to put the carpet and furniture in.

Sarah is leaving soon. It's so sad. Just recently I realized how old I really am. One second you're a little kid and then you're a senior and your best friend is leaving for college. Weird, isn't it? When are we going to have a party for Sarah?

school and other unfortunate circumstances

Well... Where to start?

Lets start at the beginning of today. It was my first day of being a senior. The beginning was pretty ok. All we did was go through about 15 minutes of each class. For lunch we had a cook out and then started the field day. It was extremely hot out which wasn't overly pleasant. I was on a team with BethAnne and Hannah for the leap frog turnament but sadly we sucked despite all of the practice we had at the hotel when we went to King's Island. Somehow I missed the hamburger bun art contest but it didn't matter, seniors won anyway. Then we did some other dumb stuff and sat in the extremely hot gym for awhile until school was over and we got to go home. Sarah, Ross, Leslie, Monica, and I had planned to go paint the church room again to paint and we all met there. We ran out of paint and could only do one coat so we went to Leslies to order pizza. As we were walking to Rainbow Gardens I started feeling kind of nautious. Thankfully I didn't puke on the road. We got back and about a half hour later I spewed the days food out. Not fun. I won't go into details. So yeah I can't say that today was the best day ever... I guess it could've been worse.

Well now I feel better which is good and I'm excited about having voice class first thing tomorrow morning. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Water.... what a beautiful thing

Yay! It's so nice being able to take a shower in my own house. Going a week without water isn't pleasant.

Well yesterday was fun. I got some new shoes. I also got the new Kutless CD and a Burlap to Cashmere CD. It only cost me $10.57 for both of the CDs, probably because they gave me a discount for signing up for a perks card. It was cool though. We ate at Panda Express in the mall. I love that place. I got the usual. The mall was super packed though. We had to walk about 10 miles just to get to the entrance. Then there were those idiot guys by the door.... From now on I think I'll stick to Goodwill.

School is in 3 days.... eww... Well not overly eww. I just don't want the summer to be over all ready. Sadness... well I don't have a whole lot to say today, maybe later.

Burglers Beware!

There's a giant hole in our yard. It's about 5 or 6 feet deep. Kinda fun but kinda not. At least maybe our water will work again soon.... hopefully.

I made this awesome coffee chiller. My mom got this stuff called java chiller or something and you blend it with ice and milk and it tastes like the coffee chillers from the legacy. It was really good. Then I made my dad a smoothie. I am an awesome smoothie maker. I should start a business or something.

Webb was a big disappointment. I hate it when the USA does bad at stuff, but I guess we can't win everything.

I did a ton of laundry today. Who would've guessed I had so many clothes? It took me 3 large loads and it was only about 2/3 of my clothes. While I was waiting for my laundry I played a couple games of pinochle with my grandma. That's always fun. I wish some of my friends new how to play it. I tried to teach Sarah once and she almost learned but not quite. My grandma must have been a good teacher because she taught me when I was 5. She's great. Everyone needs to have a grandma like her.


My sister gave me this jeans and I almost liked them. Sadly it appears that they are man pants. That's what I call jeans that have crotches that are too big. Not cool. Oh well I have a lot of jeans anyway. Speaking of clothes I still have Ross's sweatshirt. I'll try to remember and bring it to church.

Aparently my blog strike stage has ended. All I feel like doing now is blogging... well not exactly but I do feel like doing it a lot. It probably won't last forever so I might as well make the best of it.

Sausage has ticks....

My poor, cute, innocent little kitten has ticks. It's sad, but anyway....

I'm going to be sad when the Olympics are over. What will I watch on tv? What did I watch before they started? I don't remember. I was really happy when Carly Patterson won the gold. That Russian girl was weird. She said something like "I want to win the gold as much as I want to mother my own child."

I really wish our water would get fixed. My dad thinks it's something to do with the line. BethAnne's dad is coming over tonight to see if he can fix it. It better be fixed by the time school starts. Going to my grandma's every morning would not be fun and not having water is just all around annoying. Somehow I have to do my laundry for tomorrow. I guess I'll have to go to my grandma's.

Well I don't know what to do today. Probably nothing. Tomorrow I'm going shopping and I invited Sarah. It should be fun. I'll have to go to PetSmart and get something for Sausy. I also have to get all my school supplies. Nothing like waiting til the last minute. Lately I've been putting off things. Oh wait I always put off things.

I need to put my car cd player in Wagner... That's my car's new name. Leslie came up with it. It's hot, I know. My $200 cd player is just waisting away. Maybe my dad can do it... I'll have to ask him sometime. I mean if I'm not gonna put it in I should just sell it or something. I really want to put it in though... the cd player I had in my car isn't working anymore. I've been forced to make tapes, like I used to back in the day, when I had to bum rides from my mom.

I still need to get a job but I doubt if I'll be able to motivate myself enough before school starts. I need someone to kick me in the butt and say, "go find a job right now." Until then I'll have to rely on babysitting money, ebay, and my mom. I'm suprised she hasn't done that yet. It's only a matter of time. On the positive side, at least I'm not working at Funland.

Well this is my longest post in awhile and I guess I'll just leave it at.

Blog Strikers Unite....

Lately I've been wanting to go on a blog strike. I'm not sure why. I guess I just don't feel much like blogging. It's sad, but I guess I'll get through it. I do not want to be one of those people who go for weeks withour updating their blog.....(you know who you are)

Today I got up somewhat early and went to Goodwill with my mom. I like the one in Bay City, but the Salvation Army in Bay City is crap. I got a couple shirts. There's this one shirt that says ymca football. It's cool. I also bought a weathervane sweatshirt and a silver belt. Overall it was a good trip. Driving was annoying though. There was this guy that passed me going like .5 mph faster than me and then slowed down once he was in front of me. So I passed him and of course he sped up, but I just went about 70 until I was way past him. People can be so dumb.

Yesterday Sarah and I went to take back our movies. We also stopped in and visited Leslie. I got the usual. St. Vincents was hoppin. Evan Story was there. I got some toilet earrings... definitely a good investment.

I don't want to start thinking about college yet...... eeeeeee....

slept in the back of my hot station wagon...

Well this is the church campout weekend. Currently I'm at home. I went back to check my email and get some cold medicine.

I was somewhat cold last night. Not too bad though because my car is nice and cozy and I had a lot of blankets. Then I got up at 6 to go blueberry picking but my mom forgot I wanted to go and I tried to wave her down, running out in my socks and half-dressed. They must be blind or something because they didn't see me and I had to drive home and call them. I realized about half way there that my contacts weren't in. That was real safe, but I got to go blueberry picking.

A couple nights ago I watched the Bourne Supremecy. It was good. Almost better than the first one. Well my mom wants me to go get some black olives... I'll write more later or maybe not til tomorrow.

You can't look sexy when you have monkey lips.

So cedar point was fun. I actually got to ride the Top Thrill Dragster. It was awesome and definitely worth the wait. Luckily we only waited for about 1.5 hours. Here are the rides I went on in the order I went on them:

1. Raptor
2. Magnum
3. Thunder Canyon (or whatever it's called)
4. Snake River Falls
5. Millenium Force
6. Mantis
7. Power Tower
8. Top Thrill Dragster
9. Raptor

Sadly the Wicked Twister wasn't working. I would've liked to have gone on it. Over all Cedar point was fun despite my nasty cold. We didn't get home until 4:30 AM and I slept in until about 2:30 PM. I wish I lived closer to cedar point.

Yesterday Sarah and I went to tawas. We rented 6 movies for 5 days and it only cost $2. We're not sure when we're going to watch all of them but probably this weekend when we're supposed to be having the church campout in Sarah's woods.

Today has been a very intense day so far. I took a shower, went to the post office, bought some kitty litter at carters, and gave my cat a bath. I figured after all that I deserve to relax for the rest of the day....

It's weird how 9:30 feels like sleeping in.....

I got up pretty early most of the time at the relief sale. On saturday morning we had to serve for the all you can eat pancake and sausage breakfast. We worked from 6-8. I had to go around and give everyone seconds of pancakes... or thirds... or eighths. This one guy seriously had like 8 or 9 pancakes. He was fun though. We referred to him as the pancake guy after that. It was like hey, there's the pancake guy. The amish really like pancakes. At least the amish guys do. Amish are fun.

We ate at this restaurant in Mio on Saturday. I got the shrimp basket. Hannah got a nacho supreme without lettuce and she found this tiny piece of lettuce in it. So she tells the waiter (Matt) that she found a piece of lettuce, just joking with him and he brought her a whole new plate. We left him a 20% tip though. Then when we were pulling out of the driveway she forgot her retainer and she had to go back in and Matt dug throught the garbage and found it stuck to this nasty spaghetti napkin... it was funny.

Well that's all I'm gonna say about the relief sale for now because I've got to take a shower and then drop the tent off at Jen and Kev's and then get my bag from Hannah's and then I have to do some laundry and then I have to make sure I have every thing I need for cedar point and figure out what I'm going to wear. Are youth group decided to wear christian shirts to cedar point. I'm not sure which one I want to wear though. Oh well I'll figure it out. Tomorrow we leave the school at 6:00 so I'm gonna have to get up at like 5... how fun. Actually it will be fun. I'm so excited!

Guard your carnal treasure!

Sometimes I just wake up with a quote stuck in my head. That one's from Win a Date With Tad Hamilton, but in all seriousness it wouldn't be so bad if I went around telling people that. Not very many people take that seriously. If you don't know what I'm talking about and haven't seen the movie it's ok. You should be able to figure it out without getting too many brain cramps.

Last night I stayed at my sister's again and watched A Walk In the Clouds. It was good if you like the really sappy, romantic movies. Keanu Reeves is actually a very bad actor. You can't really notice it in the Matrix so much, but when he talks, he sounds like his reading something. It could just be the way he talks though. Kind of like if Andy Minard became an actor. He would just sound like he was reading it.

I find it so hard to actually take the step and do something different with my life. Changing isn't really an easy thing for me. I've prayed for opportunities, but I'm not really the type of person that goes up and talks to random people. I suppose it takes time to be able to do that. In the mean time I guess I'll just keep trying and hope for the best. It would be really cool if our youth group could organize a youth rally. I'm really seriously wanting to do it and it's not just one of those stupid ideas that just get forgotten after a couple weeks. Hmm... I guess if anyone has any ideas about that let me know.

Well we've got bible study in a few and my mom's buggin me to help her with ebay stuff so I guess that's all for now.

mmm.... lemonade is great

mmm... lemonade is great. The beach was nice. I feel tired. Stuck On You was weird. I got a microphone in the mail. I spent the night at my sister's last night. My walk that I took yesterday caused me to become scratched and bitten. Rebekah's birthday was a couple days ago. I put some wildflowers on the table......

Ok, are you annoyed yet? I know I am, so enough of that. I'm so glad it's finally cooled off outside. I was practically dying there for awhile, but at least I had the lake to cool me off. There actually was a purpose of the first paragragh. It was a way to say what I did without having to take too long. I'm not feeling very motivated to blog right now I guess.

We were on the way home from the beach and I was like, "What if your name was Sandy Globsky?" It was the first random thing I've said in awhile. I'm not really a random type of person. I'm really bad at that awkward silence so say random words game. By the time I think of something random it's too late. Oh well I guess it's ok to not be so random.

I had a sort of revelation yesterday. We watched a couple of movies that weren't the greatest. I was thinking that I shouldn't have watched them, but I think it's not just about preventing yourself from doing things it's about how you choose to respond to them. I don't know it was just a thought and I think I'm confusing myself even. My mood is really weird right now I guess....
Tomorrow we have bible study and I hope it's actually good and I hope no one acts stupid and I'll try not to. Yes, I know that I can be one of those that disturbs it and I'm going to concentrate this time. We also need to talk about having a youth rally or something and discuss Cedar Point plans.

Ok, I'm going to stop now.... this one post took me like 20 minutes... I think I'm in slow motion.